Chapter 10+11

07/08/2011 23:01

 10 Bitch

I was speechless. ‘Alissa what else can I say?’ he said looking up to me, the sun was going down and so he looked into the sun while he was trying to look at me at the same time. He closed one eye so he could still see me. Oh my god he looked so hot. I just wanted to kiss him all over and just jump on him and tell him how much I love him. I want to wake up beside him and whisper in his ear how much I love him. Cause I love him. I love him so much. He still looked at me. I took a deep breath. ‘I love you too.’ Bruno’s worried face disappeared  and he smiled at me. His smile, I love his smile. Everyone around him started to swoon.  Joelle pushed me aside ‘YOU!’ Bruno’s smile disappeared ‘Me?’  She laughed ‘GET YOUR ASS UP HERE’ I laughed. ‘Joelle..’  She looked at me ‘Wh…’ I laughed,  She laughed so hard. ‘OH MY GOD! I PUSHED YOU ON THE FLOOR!?’ She reached out her hand to help me get up again. ‘ARE YOU OKAY!?’ Bruno yelled. ‘I’M FINE!’ I yelled back. Bruno smiled. The crowd of people were gone. He really didn’t pay attention to it. I didn’t see him anymore. He must be on his way up then. Joelle smiled at me. ‘I can’t wait till’ you have cute little Bruno babies!’ I looked at her ‘WHAT!?’ I laughed. I know that Joelle expected me to explode and yell at her but…It didn’t bother me, It didn’t bother me because… I couldn’t wait for that either! Even though I don’t know him that well. I know him well enough to tell him I love him. I walked to the door and opened it. I saw him walking up the stairs and my heartbeat immediately went faster. He smiled and opened his arms for a hug. But I didn’t want a hug. I leaned in closer and I kissed him. His lips against mine felt so good. He kissed me with great passion and hunger. His lips were soft and my heartbeat went faster and faster. He put his hands on my love handles and pulled me closer as we kissed. The feeling I had was so intense. I never wanted this to end. We kept kissing and kissing. And I just naturally knew that Joelle was starting to wonder what was taking so long. Really, I couldn’t care less. He pulled away ‘I..I’m outta breath..’ he said panting. ‘Me too.’ I said smiling. ‘Well! I was wondering when it stopped. I was about to hand you guys a condom.’ Joelle…WHY!? Bruno laughed at her. ‘Hello sister in law!’ He said hugging her sideways. I laughed. ‘Not yet!’ he said quickly correcting himself. I knew she had to embarrass me just once! ‘Alissa…can I talk to you for a minute?’ Joelle looked at him. ‘A minute?’ The expression on his face was priceless. It looked like the expression cartoon figures would get when they get annoyed. ‘Or longer.’ He said shortly. ‘Joelle’ I said She looked at me ‘Yes sister dear?’ ‘FUCK OFF!’ I said. Bruno laughed. Joelle looked at me ‘..WELL! I’m just being protective…and annoying….Okay, I’ll call Jamareo.’ She said leaving us alone. ‘Jamareo?’ he said. ‘ Yeah…her new target.’ He chuckled ‘well, he’s a good friend of mine so…she better not break his precious little heart’ We laughed. He took my hand and walked me too my bedroom. This is how it was supposed to be from the beginning. But..that would be a little weird.

We sat down on my bed and he looked around. ‘Nice room’ he said smiling. I was still holding his hand while I was playing with his fingers. ‘Since everything Is out now..we have no secrets for each other right?’ he asked. ‘… not that I know of..’ he sighed ‘Well…I need to tell you something..’

My heart was beating so fast right now. I could sense from the look in his eyes that it wasn’t something good..or something he was proud off. I saw how bad it was killing him. I didn’t want him to tell me…I didn’t want to see him hurt. And after all, I haven’t told him about my dad either.

‘Baby…’ wow…did I just call him that? I didn’t hold his hand anymore and sat on his lap facing him to  comfort him. I hugged him. ‘You don’t have too.’  I didn’t let go of him. His hands were gliding up my back and he stopped in the middle of it. He pulled me closer to him and I was sitting on his….situation. My legs were out on the bed and I knotted my hands in his perfect black curls. The feeling he gave me was so amazing. He totally turned me on at the time. He was still rubbing my back and I was still on his…DICK! Okay Weiner, His Penis. There. I’m so not the naughty kind of girl but when I’m with him that changes. He wakes the puma inside of me. I rested my lips on his hair. He kissed my neck a couple of times and whispered ‘I love you’ Damn, you have no idea how much I want to fuck him right now. But I just couldn’t think of sex. One because it’s too early. Two because of what happened just yesterday, And three because I don’t know what he is going to tell me…maybe he has an illness on his balls. Oh god, my mind is being mean. I loved the silence. It wasn’t even awkward.  ‘I love you too..’  he sighed ‘Alissa I have too, or else you will come after it..’ I pulled away

He is so hot. Jesus. Why?  And how is THIS mine. My room was dark. And just when he leaned in for a kiss the idiotic sound of a doorbell ruined the moment. I heard Joelle opening the door. ‘Uhm..Hi?’ I heard her say. ‘Hey I’m Chanel’ Bruno froze. ‘You have got to be fucking kidding me’ Is what he said.

‘Ah, your ex.’ Bruno looked at me ‘How’d you know?’ I sighed ‘She is the one who told me about the accident.’ Bruno got mad. I could see him wanting to punch something. I got of his lap ‘Why did you guys broke up?’ He got madder. ‘She cheated on me’ And this is the part where I got mad. I opened the door and looked at the ugly ass 40 year old looking woman who was standing in front of me ‘You are Chanel? How did you know where I lived?’ I said madly. ‘Wow, sis…cool it’ is what Joelle said. ‘Listen..this all is none of your business. So I don’t know why you’re here, and I don’t want to know. I just want you to leave.’ She looked at me with her eyes widened. ‘I just wanted to help!’ I glared at her ‘No, you just wanted to make Bruno feel miserable. But you know, you don’t have the right to even do that because YOU are the one who cheated on HIM!’ She gasped ‘How do you know that!’ Bruno came out of my room. ‘Hello’ he said smiling. She looked at me mad. Joelle looked at her disgusted. ‘What’s with the make-up.’ Bruno tried to hold in his laugh. ‘I only put make-up on the blemishes.’ I laughed. ‘Honey, your face is a blemish,  so Joelle is kind of right.’ I said. Bruno smiled still trying to hide his laugh. He chuckled lightly. Chanel glared at him ‘Don’t look at him like that…you’re hurting him.’ She looked at me. ‘I so don’t want to help you anymore’ I got mad again ‘Did I ever ask you too!? Damn, how I want to jump on your face right now.’ Chanel looked at me rolling her eyes. ‘Oh whatever bitch.’ Bruno got mad ‘Don’t you talk to her like that.’ He said. Joelle laughed. ‘She was being nice to you! After she jumped on your face it would maybe look better.’ It was kind off sad how it was three against one, but the bitch deserved all the hate she could get.

I so wanted to hit her. So I did. And closed the door. I kind of hit her hard because she fell. I turned around and saw Bruno and Joelle laugh their fucking asses off. ‘Oh! I love you’ Is what Joelle said while trying to breathe again. ‘I can’t stand her.’  Joelle looked at me ‘I say this a lot but…I TOLD YOU SO! Oh and by the way, me and Jamareo are going on a date…wanna double?’ Bruno looked at me and I nodded. ‘Sure’ he said. I smiled at him. Joelle was so happy I liked the way she smiled when she talks about him. ‘YAY! I’m gonna call him again’ she smiled and left. When she left Bruno pushed me to the door and brushed his lips against my neck ‘You are such a bitch’ he said while kissing my neck. He got me so turned on. ‘I know’ I said while lifting his chin for a kiss. He smiled and let go

11. Our love is toxic.


 smiled and let go.  A shot of pain went right through me AGAIN, it was the same feeling I got when I had the accident, and when I was talking to Bruno when he was here. I gasped and hold on to Bruno. I closed my eyes and felt the horror through me. ‘ALISSA!?’ I heard Bruno yell. I couldn’t respond. But it was so sexy how he was freaking out.  How can I be thinking all of this when I still feel the pain shooting right through my veins with every heartbeat I had. I was panting. I screamed. Bruno was still trying to make me stop, But I wasn’t going to stop until the pain stopped. Joelle ran to the hall where we were. She looked at Bruno worried ‘WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING’ she was panicking. Bruno held me close to his body ‘Shhh…it’s okay, you’re save here.’ He tried to calm me. The pain was gone and that also meant that I could talk again. ‘W..what is wrong with me’ Bruno let go and when he did Joelle jumped on me…not literally but she attacked me while hugging me. ‘She had this before..’ he said to Joelle. ‘Baby, you have to go see a doctor.’ He said kissing my forehead. Joelle looked at him ‘Baby?’ she said on a tone. He lifted me and carried me too my room. She followed him. ‘I…I’m fine I don’t need to s…’ he interrupted me ‘No, you are seeing a doctor.’ I sighed ‘Well! Bossy.’ He smiled and took of my shoes. Joelle looked at us being al…you know..together. ‘…It’s almost disgusting too watch that’s how cute you two are together.’ She said swooning. Bruno chuckled. ‘Are you staying?’ I asked him whispering. I wasn’t feeling okay AT ALL, but I’m not telling them that. They would drag me to the Hospital.


Joelle placed her hand on my forehead ‘Are you sure you okay’ she said. I nodded and smiled at her. ‘You are seeing a doctor though’ Bruno said looking at me. I looked at him mad, fake mad. ‘That face isn’t changing anything.’ He said to me. He walked to my balcony and opened the door. I could see him standing there, leaning on the fence.  Smoking…wait..what? Smoking!? Well…that points out something again. I really do not know him. In any way. I know music is his life, and that he’s crazy and funny, and that he’s protective. And that he smokes…but…what did he want to tell me. I felt sick. Inside and outside. I wanted to know what was wrong with me. But at the same time I didn’t. What if it’s something bad. Or what if it’s nothing. It can’t be nothing. I sighed and got irritated of all these thoughts. The balcony was facing my bed, so I could see Bruno’s back. His curls look beautiful in the moonlight….Moonlight!? WHAT THE FUCK. What time is it? I looked at the time on my phone. 11.56 PM. Great. I turned around so I couldn’t look at Bruno anymore. He came back in and I pretended to be asleep. I heard him sigh and he crawled up my bed. ‘Sweetie, I have to work tomorrow I’m going home..’ How did he know I was pretending? I turned around and opened my eyes. DAMN HE WAS CLOSE. I smiled at him ‘Are you sure you’re going to be okay alone?’ He said kissing my forehead. I nodded and he kissed my lips. ‘I’ll be here tomorrow. Please, never scare me like that again’ He said. ‘I can’t help it’ I said playing with his hair. ‘Tomorrow were going to the doctor’s office after I’m done with work.’ I sighed and nodded. He smiled and pecked my lips than he tried to walk out. I grabbed his arm and pulled him on the bed. And it worked. I was pretty strong. He laid down with me and kissed me again. He smiled on my lips. ‘I really have to go’ he said. ‘You know…your work is much closer to my apartment.’ I said stroking his hair. ‘No it’s not.’ He smiled. ‘Oh work with me here!’ I said pouting. He sighed. ‘I don’t have any of my stuff here. Really Alissa, I have to go’ I hated those words. “I have to go” I sighed. ‘Fine’ I said. He smiled ‘I love you’ he said. He kissed me ‘I love you too’ He smiled and left. Why am I falling for this guy if I barely know him…



Bruno’s Mind. 9.00 AM @ His house.


My alarm went off. My eyes flew open and I stopped the noise as quick as possible. My heart was filled with so much love that it almost hurt. I got out of bed and opened the curtains. The sun was shining as bright as my mood. I felt good. I smiled. I felt really good. I wanted to text Alissa but I don’t want to wake her. I had some breakfast, jumped in the shower and brushed my teeth. I got dressed grabbed my keys and got in the car. I started  singing the worst song ever but it just really described the way I felt. I want to love you, feel you, wrap myself around you I want to squeeze you, please you, I just can't get enough. And if you move real slow I'll let it go! I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it 
I'm about to lose control and I think I like it. I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it And I know, I know, I know, I know, I know I want you, want you. 

And god, I do want her. She is so sexy. And I don’t think she even knows what she does to me. Her lips, her thighs, her legs, her eyes. Damn. I can’t believe I just sang a song of the pointer sisters. Or how I like to call them the Disappointing sisters. I got there and got out of my car. I saw Phil getting out of his car. ‘Hey Bro!’ I said super happy. He turned around. ‘Hey man! Ari isn’t coming today, but Ray is’ He said not noticing my happiness.  ‘It’s all fine with me’ I said while unlocking the studio. ‘You seem…extra happy to go to work today’ Phil said smiling. ‘Ah, shut up man. I’m happy cause I have my woman back’ I said while throwing my jacket on the couch and sitting in my main chair. ‘…You got back with Chanel?’ he asked disgusted. I gave him the look. ‘Hell no.’ I said. ‘Then who is…ALLISA!?’ he yelled. ‘YES!’  of course he knew everything. He’s my bro. I tell him everything.  Were like partners in crime. He’s Bonnie I’m Clyde. Cause…you know..skirts don’t suit me, Phil just has the right curves. I laughed at my thoughts. ‘I thought she was pretty clear when she said she never wanted to see you again’ He said with a questioned face. ‘Well…I just..told her how I felt. And I was lucky that she felt the same or else I stood there like a lost mother fucker.’ Phil smiled ‘I’m happy for you man’ I sighed. ‘In a long time…I am too’ Ray came in. ‘Okay whores! What are we doing today?’ he said walking in like he was Godzilla. I snapped out of my glory. And Phil laughed at me making a face to Ray. ‘Today we are trying to figure out a song for…Brandy..’ My pupils popped out of my eyes ‘BRANDY!?’ FUCK YES , I love that woman. Her voice kills. Ray looked at Phil ‘…Don’t lie to me bro’ he said. Phil laughed ‘I’M SERIOUS!’ Ray looked at Phil. ‘Spit on it.’ I gave Ray the look. ‘Hell no, I don’t see you cleaning this damn floor.’ Phil said. I burst out laughing. Does she have any wishes to the song?  I asked. ‘she said it had to be an intense love a long distance relationship or something.’ He said. I sighed. ‘Well…lets tear up the studiooooo’ I said. ‘Please don’t…we don’t have money.’ Ray said. ‘Well..after we finish this song..people will be begging us for just 4 chords.’ Phil laughed while saying that. ‘Hey, don’t underestimate those 4 chords. Doo-wop music is what gave music a new definition.’ Phil and Ray laughed at me saying that. We got to work. And instead of messing around we actually got to work. After trying at least a hundred beats we finally found a good one. It was slow. But it speeded up a little bit at the last verse. My phone rang. I didn’t look at the caller ID and picked up. ‘Hey Baby’ I heard her say. I smiled and walked out of the room without saying anything. ‘Hey love, how are you doing today?’ I asked her smirking. ‘Better.’ She said. I knew she was lying. Just like when she said she was okay yesterday night. ‘Mmm really?’ I asked teasing her. ‘Jup, I’m doing great!’ she said. ‘Oh save the crap Alissa. I’m still getting you checked up today.’ I said while sitting on the little stairs outside the studio. ‘Fine’ she said irritated. I don’t get why she doesn’t want to know what is wrong with her. Why she doesn’t want the pain to stop.  ‘Are you coming here?’ I asked her. ‘I will…Bruno…You have to know that I hate doctor’s…’ I leaned back. ‘Why?’ She sighed. ‘It’s awkward.’ I chuckled. ‘Well, if it makes you feel any better I’m there’ I said smiling ‘No, no that makes it worse. If I have to take my clothes off…that’s not how I want it to happen.’ I sighed, ‘Baby…I’ll leave.’ I said. I looked at Ray’s motor bike and chuckled lightly. If you would kick that thing it would fall apart. ‘Okay…I’ll be on my way now.’ She said and she just hung up. I sighed and walked in again. ‘I have to go in 5 to 10 minutes.’ I said. Ray looked at me ‘What now.’ I sighed. ‘I have to take my stubborn girlfriend to a doctor’  Phil smiled. ‘I thought you broke up with Chanel?’ Ray said.  ‘I did..but this is another one…It’s a different situation..way different’ I saw the question marks pop up upon his head. ‘Phil will explain’ I sat down and checked my email and did some other stuff until Alissa got here. The door opened and I heard it close again. I saw her. She looked fierce. So hot. So beautiful. I stood up and looked at her. ‘…wow’ I heard Ray say. ‘Hello’ I heard her say to the guys with her happy smile on. ‘Let’s go!’ I said I got my jacket and walked up to her. I hugged her sideways and kissed her. She smiled at me.  ‘WOW!’Ray said again. ‘find your own.’ I said and laughed, Phil smiled. ‘I’ll see you’ He said. Ray gave Alissa a friendly smile and of course she smiled back. I took her hand. And we got in the car. She was quiet the whole ride. I just knew that she was holding herself together because the pain was back. Sometimes she made a face because off the pain. I just knew it was the pain. I knew that face. I took her hand. ‘Are you okay?’ I asked kissing her hand. She looked at me and nodded. I could see the pain in her eyes I just couldn’t take it any longer. I can’t see my girl hurt. ‘Please talk to me.’  I said. She leaned her head on the window. ‘I was never “okay” Bruno.’ She said and she sighed. ‘I knew that..’ She looked at me with a questioned face. ‘…Did you know how hard it was for me to leave you alone like that, I just naturally knew you were lying to me somehow… you didn’t want to worry me and you didn’t want me to take you to the doctor.’ I sighed and placed my hand on her cheek, I rubbed my finger across her jaw line and kissed her on her forehead. I was still driving. So it was kind of risky. She sighed. ‘I’m sorry I lied to you.’ I looked at her. ‘Don’t be…I get why you did.’ She played with my fingers and we got there. She got out of the car.  I walked to the door and held it open for her. She walked in and sighed. I grabbed her by her waist and kissed her in slow motion. Intensely and soft but rough at the same time. ‘You’re going to be fine.’ I said and let go of her. We walked to the waiting room and sat down next to all these serious ill people. There was a girl and she kept staring at me. When I looked at her to make sure she was looking at me she looked away quickly and she started giggling. Alissa laughed cause she knew what was going on. She decided to just rub it in the girl’s face that she was never going to get my attention. Alissa whispered in my ear and she held on to my side. ‘I love you’ she said and kissed me on my cheek. I chuckled. My chuckle is like a giggle. But seriously. I don’t giggle. It was quiet. There was an old…very old couple in the room and they smiled at Alissa and Me. Alissa smiled back with her beautiful white smile. I smiled back too and I looked back at Alissa. She started playing with my fingers. ‘What is it with you and my fingers.’ I said out loud. She giggled. ‘I don’t know..’ she said smiling. ‘Alicia Laura James?’  She sighed and stoop up. I did as well and I whispered in her ear ‘Laura?’  she sighed. ‘My dad picked it out.’ I chuckled. We walked into the doctor’s office. And he grinned at Alissa. He looked like a dirty old man with grey hair only doing his job to look at boobie’s.  I wouldn’t let HIM touch my baby. We shook hands and sat down. ‘So what’s the problem’ he said while clicking with his pen. She sighed. ‘Sometimes out of nowhere I get very strong pains shooting right through my body, It hurts…so much and I just can’t take it anymore.’ He sighed ‘out of nowhere? Are you sure?’ I wanted to hit the guy ‘No..she came all the way out here to lie to your face’ I said glaring at him. She looked at me ‘Bruno..’ she said and I tried to talk to him in a normal tone again. ‘I was there what she had those pains..It’s just unhealthy. She hold herself back from screaming but I know how much it hurts her when I look at her.’ The doctor sighed. ‘We’ll do some tests on you’ Alissa began to stutter. ‘T-t-tests?’  she asked. I looked at her. ‘It’s okay.’ I told her. She sighed ‘What kind of tests.’ She asked ‘Well…we have to do an MRI scan…and we have to take some blood. Can I listen to your heartbeat for a second?’ She swallowed harsh and nodded. “Fucking pervert” is what I thought but she refused to take of her shirt. So he did it just above her clothes. ‘You’re fine, but you’ll hear when you have to do the MRI scan.’ She nodded. We got out of our chairs and walked to the door. He was standing there to shake hands. Alissa did but I didn’t.  I walked out and our eyes locked and I knew she was thinking the same. ‘Perv’ we said at the same time and we laughed. I kissed her but what we didn’t notice is that we did it in the waiting room that was all of the sudden filled with people. She looked around and things started getting awkward. I took her hand and we walked outside. ‘What..if..there is something wrong with me…’ I stopped her, let go of her hand and grabbed her by her shoulders. ‘Don’t say that…you’re going to be fine’ I said, I kissed he