“Or just stop drinking as much.” Tori added. I nodded, “Thanks girls.” I looked over and seen Michelle coming with Jasmine following her, “What the fuck happened?” “Nicole.” I didn’t even have to say anything else, she already knew. “What did that bitch say? Do you need me to go back in there?” “No it’s okay. I think I’ve had enough drama for tonight.” She took a deep breath, “Okay. It’s still early, where are we going to go now?” I wondered if Bruno had got done with the song, we could always go to the studio.
We all got in the car and I sat there, trying to figure out where things went wrong. I was def the one that was wrong in this whole situation, I didn’t even have to go over to her. I put my head down, and now I was pretty sure she was going to tell Bruno. I would have to tell him before her. And then he would know I went through his phone. I just wish our relationship didn’t have all these other extra things to deal with. I just wanted to be happy with him.
We pulled up at the studio and we all got out. I was not prepared to tell Bruno what had just happened. If he was in a good mood, I was about to ruin it. “Just tell him the truth. At least you’ll be right on that part.” Michelle whispered to me as we walked to the door. I nodded.
“What do you mean?” Bruno said. Why the fuck is she here. “I mean you guys we’re all frowned up and stuff..” He got up, “Aw nah, it’s nothing.” Phil looked at him weird. I knew something was going on, but I had no idea what. He came over to hug me and I smelled alcohol on him, guess he had been drinking too. “How is everyone?” Karmen said sitting up. Everyone said good in unison. I couldn’t take this awkwardness anymore. “Bruno, can I talk to you, outside.” He nodded and we started for the door. I felt closed in, in there for some reason. We went outside and sat on the bench. “Bruno… I got something to tell you.” He looked at me seriously, “Huh?”
What could she have to tell me? “I did something I’m not proud of, I just don’t know what came over me.” I looked down, whatever it was how could I be mad at her after what I just did. “What did you do?” “Well I looked threw you’re phone and saw text messages from Nicole number 1..” I got a knot in my stomach why was she not upset about what she read? “And I ran into her at the club, and I fought her. I didn’t even have to go her way. I was just so angry.” I looked at her, “That’s it?”
She put her head in her hands, “I’m sorry.. I swear..” I put my arm around her, “Babe it’s okay..” I whispered. She looked at me with tears in her eyes but didn’t say anything. I nodded, “I don’t talk to her anymore, I’m pretty sure the message you read was old.” She hugged me and I closed my eyes. How could I tell her about what just happened now. We unlocked and she grabbed my hand, “Now what was going on in there?” “Phil and E we’re picking on me, bringing up old things from the past.” I lied. She laughed, “They’re always messing with you.” I smirked, “Yeah.” How was I going to get myself out of this one. I couldn’t believe I had just lied to her, again.
She stood up, “So did you let the guys hear the song?” The song, fuck I had forgot all about it. “Not yet, we ended up working on something else.” “Oh okay then, you ready to go back inside?” I nodded and she helped me up.
I grabbed his hand and started walking towards the door, I was so glad he wasn’t mad. I actually couldn’t believe it. It was nice to be able to talk to him about something without it leading to an argument. I opened the door and we both walked in. All the girls we’re sitting around talking and smiling. I joined in with them and Bruno went in the kitchen with the guys. “What you girls talking about?” I said squeezing in between Tori and Michelle on the couch. “Those guys at the Avalon.” I shook my head, “Crazy.”
I sat down at the table and they all looked at me seriously. “You told her right?” Phil said. I shook my head. “What? Why?” he whispered. “Phil I can’t do that to her, I told you I thought it was her.” E shook his head and Ari nervously shuffled the cards. “You always manage to get yourself into some shit.” E said. I rubbed my face, “I know, but I’m done with Karmen, like seriously.” Ari started passing out the cards. “I hope so. You know, you’re lucky you my homie.” Phil said picking up his cards. I grabbed my cards and looked at them, “Thanks man, I’m done cheating and all of that, I’m going to get myself together.” In all honesty I actually meant it.
After an hour of talking and laughing, I was getting pretty tired. I was guessing Karmen got the memo from Bruno. I’m glad he ended things with her, maybe this was it, no more problems for us. Now we could focus on Bruno’s album. I smiled to myself at this thought. I rested my head on Michelle’s shoulder and before I knew it, I was out.
I waved goodbye to everyone and closed the door. I walked down the hall and looked at Diamond sleeping on the couch. She looked tired so I decided we would stay the night here. I started cleaning up a bit, picking up papers and taking glasses to the kitchen. Then, my phone vibrated. I looked up to the clock on the wall, it was 1:02 A.M. Who would be texting me this late I thought taking my phone out. It was Karmen, I felt myself getting mad….
(Hey hey Bruu coming out tonight?) What the hell is she thinking.. (No. I told you, we’re done. We can’t do this anymore.) I started pacing, I didn’t feel like arguing with her. (Aw, Bru, you we’re serious?) (Yeah, very serious. We can be friends, but that’s it. You can work on my album with me, but that’s it.) I stood there anxiously waiting for her reply. (Oh! Okay, see you whenever.) I had to read the message again. Was she really going to give up that easy? In a way it scared me, but I was glad she finally got the damn picture. One less problem for me.
I went over and lifted Diamond’s head up and put it on my lap as I sat down. I got as comfortable as I could without waking her up and fell asleep faster then I expected.
“No.” I heard Bruno say. I knew I was laying on his lap but, I was half woke and whispered back, “What?” He didn’t saying anything. I opened one of my eyes and realized that I was in the studio. It was just about pitch black but, I managed to see the clock, it was damn near 4 A.M. “Please stop.” he moaned. I sat up, “What the he—” I quickly covered my mouth. He was talking in his sleep. I watched him closely. “I can’t.” he mumbled. I held a laugh in, I never caught him talking in his sleep. “I’m sorry.” he moaned. He started shifting positions and turned his head in the opposite direction. This is priceless I thought. “I love you.” he mumbled. I sat up and moved right next to his ear and whispered, “I love you too.” He suddenly opened his eyes and jumped almost hitting me in the face with his head. He scared the shit out of me, I jumped back on the couch. He started looking around frantically and breathing hard, I grabbed his arm, “Bruno!” He looked at me seriously but, didn’t respond.
I frowned, “Are you okay?” He grabbed my hand and squeezed it, “I don’t know.” I looked at his hand and then back up to his face, “What happened?” He let go of my hand and buried his face in both of them. “I almost did it.” he whispered. My heart broke a little, I knew what he was talking about but, I didn’t want to say it. I ran my fingers threw his hair, “I’m sorry.” He hugged me unexpectedly and whispered in my ear, “Thank you so much Diamond, so so much.” I rubbed his back, “It’s okay Bruno..” When we finally unlocked he laid his head back and took a deep breath. I cuddled back close to him and put my head on his chest. I listened as his heartbeat went from fast, back to normal again. I was just as scared as him.
I was almost sleep again when he whispered my name. “Hmm?” “I haven’t been sleeping.” I leaned up and looked at him in the eyes, “Why?” He closed his eyes and turned from me, “Nightmares.” I could tell he was ashamed, but he didn’t have to be, I understood. I rubbed his thigh, I really was lost for words. He turned to me, “I jumped this time.” “This time? How many times have you had this nightmare?” “4.” I shook my head, I felt for him, deeply. “Bru.. I just don’t know what to say.” “Just don’t let me do it.” If he was trying to get me emotional, it was fucking working. I pecked him on the lips, “I won’t. I promise.” He smiled and I laid back down in my same position. I couldn’t help but relive the whole situation in my head again. It really was like a nightmare for me. I hoped that neither one of us would have to go through that ever again.
Some lyrics from one of Bruno’s songs popped into my head. I never really sang much, unless I was in the shower. But, I felt like now was a good time to do it. I was no where near as good as him, but my voice was just soft enough to sound okay. I started to sing,
If you’re tossing and you’re turning and you just can’t fall asleep,
I’ll sing a song, beside you..
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me..
Everyday I will, remind you..
I smiled the entire time she sang. I closed my eyes and let her words take me away. The little sweet things that she did for me like this made me love her more and more. Her song worked enough to settle my nerves. I fell right asleep, and surprisingly no more nightmares…..
I woke up with a slight headache. Fucking alcohol, I really need to stop drinking. I looked down to Diamond, she was still sleep. She ususally never sleeps longer than me. I looked up at the clock, it was 10:27 A.M. I tried slipping from underneath her without waking her up. Of course I failed. “Morning Bru.” she said sitting up. “Good morning.” I said smiling to her. “How’d you sleep?” I nodded, “A lot better.” She smiled and rubbed my arm, “Good.” I got up and stretched, I wished I was at home. “You ready to go home?” Diamond asked. She read my mind. I nodded, “Yes please.” We gathered all our things together but, I left my guitar. I was planning on coming back. We hopped in my car and was home before we knew it.
I went into the room and instantly collapsed on the bed. “Ahhhh.” I moaned in pleasure. I leaned up and saw Diamond stripping down. “Owh.. shower.” I said smirking. She looked at me, “By myself.” I got up and ran into the bathroom taking my shirt off in the process. “Bruno!” I closed to the door and locked it. “Okay okay, we can take one together.” she said through the door. I opened it and smiled, “Much better.” She walked in and I leaned over to turn the shower on. She turned off the lights. I had a flash back of last night. “Diamond, please turn the lights on.” “Why, you scared of the dark now?” she joked. “Na, I just.. please.” I begged. She turned them on and frowned, “What’s wrong?” “Nothing.. I just want to be able to see you.” I lied. She rolled her eyes, “Whatever.” I laughed and took her in my arms, “I love you.”
I looked up at him, “I love you too.” I could tell something with bothering him, but I didn’t know what. He always loved when I turned off the lights on him. We both stripped all the way down and right before I jumped in the shower, I grabbed him. He immediately went to guard his self and I laughed at him. “Now you know, if you get me started I won’t stop.” I pulled the shower curtain back, “Try me.” He got in and came right behind me and started kissing on my shoulder. “Bruno.” “Hmm?” he said still kissing me. I turned to him, “Do you want kids?” He frowned and choked on his words, “Uh yeah, wait why?” I giggled, “I’m just asking.” I honestly just wanted to throw him off, I was pretty tired and I just wanted to sleep most of the day. I had a long work week ahead of me. We both washed each other and tried my best not to get turned on with the things he did. But, of course that didn’t work. The way his fingers glided across my body made me want to just jump on him, but I didn’t have the energy to do it.
He started rubbing up and down my back and it felt incredible. “Babe you okay?” he said. “Mhmmm.” I said not able to make words. He really knew what he was doing. Before I let myself get all the way to that point I told him I was ready to get out. He pulled the shower curtain back and got up. He grabbed and towel and held it out for me to wrap up in. I loved when he did things like that, it made me feel warm inside. I jumped out right into the towel and he wrapped me in it. I got lost in him and watched closely as water droplets fell down his neck to his shoulder. My hormones we’re raging for some reason. I just had no idea why I was fighting them. I hurried out of the bathroom and dried myself off and threw on some shorts and a t-shirt. I went and sat on the bed and rubbed my eyes.
I went in and grabbed a pair of boxers out of the drawer and put them on. I looked at Diamond, I could tell she was really tired. “You wanna take a nap?” I said crawling into the bed. “Please.” she said turning to me. I wrapped us up in the covers and kissed her on the forehead. I closed my eyes and breahed in her scent.
I watched him closely and observed him. His hair, his nose, his lips. I wanted him so bad for some reason. I didn’t know what it was about him that still drove me crazy every single day. After fighting with myself for the next 2 minutes, I came to my decision. “Bruno.” I whispered. “Hmm.” he said his eyes still closed. “I give up.” He slowly opened his eyes, “What?” I kissed him, “Let’s just do it.”….
This chapter is dirty, you have been warned. o.O But, enjoy!
He smiled, “Anytime.” I leaned closer and kissed him. He grabbed my face and kissed me even more passionately. I loved when he kissed me like that. I was so ready for him. He started kissing down my neck to my shoulders. He took one of his hands and put it up my shirt. He slowly rubbed up my stomach and I shivered from his touch. He got up on his knees and helped me pull my shirt off. I laid back and he smiled at me as he laid in between my legs.
I looked right into her eyes and kissed her again. She ran her fingers threw my hair massaging my head as she went along. I started reaching for her shorts and took both them and her underwear off in one motion. I smiled against her lips. I leaned up and she watched me closely as I pulled my boxers down. I didn’t even bother taking them all the way off. I went right inside and watched as she clenched the covers.
I started slow making sure she felt all of me. I propped myself up with my arms and watched myself. After awhile I looked back up to her and she had her eyes closed. I closed mine as well and focused. I listened as her moans grew stronger, it only motivated me to do more. I opened my eyes back up to find her watching me. I smiled and laid down on her grabbing her legs in the process. I sped up and whispered in her ear, “You like this huh?” “Mhmmm.” she moaned. I closed my eyes again and listened to the noises our bodies made. I felt myself starting to sweat. I kicked my boxers all the way off. After awhile, I let go of one of her legs and propped myself up again. I watched as her eyes went everywhere. She put her hands on my chest. That’s when I knew she was close.
I had no control over my moans anymore. I kept creeping closer and closer to my destination. I didn’t even care that he was on top the whole time. I watched as sweat ran from his forehead down his neck. He smiled and bit his lip when he saw me watching him. He could be so cocky sometimes, but he was really putting in work this time. “I love you Bruno.” I moaned. “I love you too.” he said never stopping. I grabbed his arm even though it was hard for me to grip because of the sweat.
We had been going for awhile now, longer than we usually do. I was seriously getting tired, but the pleasure was so overwhelming. “You almost there?” he whispered. All I could do was nod. He made his strokes longer and softer. It didn’t take me long after that to be done.
He laid on top of me again and I put my arms around him. My moans went right into his ears, and his into mine. “Come on Bruno.” I moaned. He thursted a couple more times and let out a deep moan. He was finally done. We both laid there out of breath for a minute. I decided I would be the one to break the silence after sex. “What gave your stamina a boost today?” He laughed and wiped his sweaty face on me. I screamed in disgust, “Oh my god stop it!” He laughed even harder and I pushed him off of me. He rolled over and sat on the edge of the bed. He got up and searched for his boxers. He went over and wiped his sweat off on a towel. ”What you doing?” I said pulling the blankets up on me. “Gonna take a smoke.” I nodded and shifted positions in the bed trying to get comfortable.
I pulled on some jeans and threw on a t-shirt. I grabbed my cigarettes and walked outside to the front. I leaned against the wall and lit my cigarette. I couldn’t help but replay what had just happened in my head. Damn she made me feel good. I didn’t understand why I still always found myself cheating. I glanced over to my car and saw that there was a piece of paper underneath the windshield wiper. I frowned, flickered my cigarette and walked towards it……
I looked around and grabbed it…
*Easy come, easy go.. That’s just how you live.*
I instantly looked up and around me again. Someone was playing with me. These were my lyrics, I had never even spoken them before. I crumpled up the piece of paper in anger and flickered my cigarette. I walked into the house and threw the ball of paper in the trash can. I started looking around for my notebook. I always kept it around and I rarely said the words from them out loud unless I was ready too. I walked in the the bedroom, “Diamond.” She turned to me and frowned, “What’s wrong?” I walked over to the desk and looked threw things, “You seen my notebook?” “Bruno you told me not to touch it.” I sat down on the edge of the bed and rubbed my face.
She leaned up and rubbed my back, “What’s going on?” I turned to her, “Now I know I’m not too crazy but, either someone is reading my thoughts..” I paused and shook my head. “Or someone’s got into my damn notebook.” She started thinking. I stood up, “Some of my lyrics were wrote down on a piece of paper on the windshield of my car.” “Huh?” “Exactly, I’m confused too.”
I knew how private Bruno kept his notebook. He was always writing and thinking. He had lyrics upon lyrics in there. I knew how much it mean’t to him, and when someone fucks with that, he’s going to be really upset. “Babe I’m sure it’s nothing, you may have left it at the studio.” I said trying to keep him calm.
He went over to the closet, “I need to go find it.” “Okay well, just call me babe.” I watched him as he slid on a yellow and blue plaid shirt. He seemed to never run out of these, but I guess I did keep buying them. “I will.’” he said putting on his shoes. He crawled onto the bed and kissed me. “Love you Brunz.” I said as he went out the door. He looked back in, “Love you too.” I hoped that he found it and there really wasn’t someone reading his thoughts, that would be creepy. I pushed the situation to the back of my mind and turned over to try and sleep.
I grabbed my keys, phone, and sunglasses off the counter. I walked back outside and jumped in my car. As I pulled up I could see that Karmen was here. There was really no way I could get rid of her considering she was helping me with my album. I hopped out the car and walked right in. “Yo yo, what’s good?” I said closing the door. I walked in to find Phred and Karmen sitting around. Before Phred could say anything, his phone started ringing. He looked at it, “One sec Brunz, I gotta take this.” I watched him walk into the kitchen and I grabbed my guitar. I sat on the couch and started strumming, I honestly didn’t want to speak to her.
“You know, you don’t have to ignore me, I did what you asked.” I looked up at her, “You haven’t done anything I’ve asked YET.” She threw her hands up, “I’m done Bruno, I swear.” I nodded and continued strumming, “Alright, prove it.” For some reason, I felt like she had my notebook, but I wanted to make sure. “Have you seen my notebook, with all my lyrics in it?” She looked around as if she really concerned, “Last time I seen it, it was on the desk.” I instantly stopped strumming and looked over to the desk. There is laid closed like it had been untouched. I put my guitar down and walked over to the desk. I opened it up and flipped through the pages, “What the fuck did you do?”………