Chapter 31-33

21/07/2011 00:33

Chapter 31:

When i woke up it wasn‘t exactly morning, more like late afternoon, Ryan was already up. he kissed the top of my head and i stood up. i heard water, so did he. we walked in the room and there were clothes on the ground, steam coming out of the bathroom, Bruno must be taking a shower. the water turned off and he walked out in a towel, i tried to get Ryan out the room.

"Don't bother, i already saw you guys sleeping together." Bruno said behind me.

"So what, a friend can sleep in another friends arms."

"Friends, right."

"So, were you washing off the latest skank from last night?" i spat back.

"No, the hours of hard work and labor i put in."

"I already know the studio was closed, try to think of a better lie next time. when you think of one, i'll be downstairs." i crossed my arms and walked downstairs with Ryan following me.

"LEXIE, where are you?!" i yelled.

"In da pool!" i heard her say.

"By yourself?" i ran out there.

"No i'm here." Cliff said.

"Please watch her carefully."

"Don't worry.“ i made the majority of the house breakfast.

"Hey come eat!" i yelled for Ryan. Ryan walked in first a few seconds later Bruno walked in.

"Here you go." i gave Ryan his plate with a smile and sat across from him eating my food.

"Where's mine?" Bruno asked.

"Did i call your name?"

"You said hey."

"Right not liar, cheater or backstabber so obviously i didn't mean you." i said harshly. He nodded, wiped his nose and walked out of the kitchen. we ate and i walked up stairs to the bedroom, he was writing something. i sat at the edge of the bed.

"So why are you here?" i asked.

"I live here?"

"You said you wouldn’t be back till Sunday. how do you suddenly have a day off the night before the concert?"

"Come sit by me." he said rubbing next to him. "Come on, we need to talk." i scooted over and played with my hair.

"I'm sorry i've neglected you this week. I haven't been completely honest with you and i'm sorry. i don't ever want you to feel like i've ignored and left you behind. i love you truly with all of my heart. tonight is the before party, it's custom you can ask anyone about it. i'm going at 9 I'd like you to come.”

“Why should I forgive you so quickly.”

“Because I’m your husband and you mean the world to me. I’m in love with you and I want to apologize, I don’t ever want you to feel this way again.”

“Can I ask you one things I’ve been meaning to ask all week?” he nodded. “Can we finally go get the restraining order against Alex?”

“I don’t think that’s a great idea.“ He hopped up threw on a hat and tried to put his shoes on.

“Where are you going?”

“I just remembered I…”

“You…? You what?”

“Have something to do.”

“And just like that, the moment is over, you don’t love me, I’m alone again.”

“I told you don’t feel that way anymore.”

“Well excuse me for being in the wrong because I can’t control my fucking feelings Peter!”

“Peter?” he knows I only call him Peter when I’m extremely pissed/upset/sad. 

“And if you don’t want me feeling this way, stop doing things that make me feel like this.”

“My stylist wanted me at 5, it’s already 6:30, I gotta go.” he walked over and grabbed my hands. “Please promise me you’ll come tonight?”

“I don’t know, Peter.”

“I’m begging you.” he said quietly.

“What is the address?”

“It’s actually at Bamboo.” he smiled, “Where we first met.” he smiled and kissed my hand.

“Don’t remind me.” I said and got up. He got upset, and walked out of the room and out of the house. 

This is one of the many moments where I wish I had a sister. I can’t call Preeti, I can’t call her! After the things she said, wishing she would have just left me? I can’t sink down and call her. Maybe I just need some sun. I put on a tankini so my stomach was covered from the sun and walked my way outside. Alexie was laying on a raft.

“Baby you getting your tan on?” I smiled getting in the water.

“You know it.” she said with her eyes closed. “We still goin to see Bruno in concert tomorrow?” she asked smiling at me.

“I don’t know baby.”

“Why! I wanna see him! He’s good like Michael Jackson!” I laughed.

“If you’re good.” she smiled closer her eyes and laid there. Someone started knocking at the door.

“I’ll get it.” I hoped up wrapping a towel around me and walked to the door. I opened it.

“Hi.” I said to her.

“Hi.” she said quietly. We starred at each other. “I’m sorry.” she whispered starting to cry.

“Why would you say that? Your words never left me. You wish you would had left me there, to die.” I mouthed ‘to die’ crying. She opened her arms and hugged me, I hugged her back. We stood there in the doorway hugging each other, and soaking each other’s shoulders with our tears.

“I love you Preeti.” I said through sobs.

“I love you too Nicholle.” she said rubbing my back. We sniffed a few times and pulled apart. 

“Wanna come in?” I asked rubbing my eyes.

“Yeah.” she smiled. I closed the door behind her. We sat on the couch and looked at each other. She smiled I started to laugh, she joined me.

“So how you been?” I asked her.

“Pretty good. You?”

“I wish I could say good.”

“What’s wrong?”

I let out a sigh an ran my fingers from my forehead down through my hair. “Bruno’s…cheating.” I said looking her straight in the eyes.


Chapter 32:


“Yeah, I’m…okay with it though.”

“I’m not! How could you be?!”

“It’s what I expected of him. He’s in the music business, on tour a lot, I mean it was bound to happen.” 

“Honey, you can’t believe that.”

“I have to and I will. To keep my sanity.”

“But you-”

“Just stop.” I smiled. “I really just need you to be here for me right now, not your mouth, just you.”

“Fine.” she said then smiled. I heard Alexie laughing. “What did you pop one out already?” she asked.

“No.” I laughed. “It’s my, well our cousin Alexie.” she followed me out to the back. Alexie came over.

“Alexie this is Preeti.”

“Hi Alexie.”

“Hi.” she said. She jumped back in the pool and Preeti and I went back in the living room to talk.

“I need a favor of you.” I said.


“Come with me and drive to Bamboo tonight?”

“This wouldn’t be for the before party would it?”

“He begged me to go.”

“Nicholle.” she whined. 

“Remember, I just need you to be here.”

“Fine!” she called Xavier and had him bring the kids over. They ordered pizza. They are staying here with Cliff and Alexie tonight until we get back. Preeti and I got ready upstairs. I put on blue jean shorts, an oversized tunic which hid my stomach very well and some gladiator sandals. I curled my hair loosely, did smoky eye shadow, eye liner on the bottom, and mascara. 

“For someone who’s mad at him you sure do look good.”

“He has to pay for his actions. He chose to mistreat me, it’s not my fault if I get attention from other guys tonight.” I shrugged.

She shook her head smiling. “There’s my sister, the Nicholle I remember.” I gave her a hug, we rocked back and forth slightly.

“You ready?” she asked.

“You think I‘ll need my id?”

“Your not drinking.”

“But still and plus I just turned 21 I still look young.”

“Just grab it then.” we got in her car and she drove with me in the backseat. She drove down and it was crowded outside. We walked up to the bouncer skipping the line.

“What are you doing?” Some random girl asked.

“Goin inside.” I said.

“You can’t cut the line, and like they’d let you in. come on now they‘re not blind.”

“Bitch test me.” Preeti said on my defense.

“You ladies are in, but you look familiar. What’s your name?” he asked me.

“Nicholle Hernandez.”

“That’s right Bruno’s wife, he’s been expecting you.” I smiled. 

“Thanks.” I said. “See you inside? No? Pitty.” I said to the girl and we walked inside. “Damn I wish I could drink!” I said when we got to the bar.  She got a strawberry daiquiri and just took ginger ale.

“No caffeine, no alcohol, no nothin! Do you see me lovin anywhere?”

“No.” she laughed.  

“So what now?” 

“Make someone jealous?”

“I’m down.” I smiled.

“I just saw him, he’s looking over here.” I said. I handed her my drink. “Watch this.” I smiled walked over to a random hot guy grabbed his hand and pulled him on the dance floor.

“Dance with me?” I smiled.

“What kind of a guy would I be to say no?” I giggled and he turned me around. He put his hands on my hips and we danced together as provocatively as possible.  

“Thanks for the dance hun bun.” I winked at him then walked away at the end of the song, swaying my hips a little more than usual.

“Bruno couldn’t take his eyes off of you! He’s looking now.”

“Good.” I turned around found Bruno and waved at him. I took a sip of my drink, raised it to him and took another sip. He started walking over.

“What the hell are you doing?” he asked pissed off.

“Oh I’m sorry, I thought we were done?”

“Excuse me sweetheart, I didn’t get your name.” my dancing partner said coming up behind Bruno.

“My wife!” He said to her.

“I’m Nicholle. Love the way you dance, by the way.” I said and shook his hand. 

“You’re done here.” Bruno said to the guy.

“When he gets the panties out of a bunch I’d love another dance.” he smiled.

“Promise.” I winked at him. He walked away smiling. 

“What were you thinking?” he asked me. I took a sip of my drink. “And drinking?!” he said snatching my drink he took a sip.

“It’s ginger ale asshole.” I said and grabbed it back. 

“I thought you coming here was a sign that you forgave me?”

“For you cheating no?”

“For the thousandth time I’m not cheating!”

“Whatever Bruno, someone wants you.” I said and looked behind him. He turned around, it was a girl. He looked back and forth between me and Preeti then walked away.

“Nicholle.” Preeti started.

“Oh god, I already know.“

“I don’t think he’s cheating on you.”

“Why would you say that?”

“He seemed like he was hiding something, something deeper than cheating.” I looked over at him. He was sitting on the couch alone with his head in his hands. 

“What else could it be?” I asked. A few hours passed I danced with some more guys and so did Preeti, she was just having fun, no harm no foul. We walked into the VIP area where Bruno and the band were. The guys were dancing or talkin with girls, they were quieter when they saw me and Preeti. Bruno was sitting on the couch laughing, talking and smiling with a girl. Not just any girl though. A girl that has history with us.

“Alex?” I whispered crying. She looked at me. “The thousandth time you’re not cheating?” I asked Bruno crying.

“Conversating!” he said jumping up.

“Save it, I already knew it, it just hurts that you have the balls to do it with me, what, 300 feet away?” I said trying to stop my tears. “You win Alex.” I smiled at her. “He’s all yours.” I looked at Bruno, Preeti grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the club. 

“See ya Mrs. Hernandez.” The bouncer said as I left.

“No, not me. She inside.” I told him crying. I got in the back of the car huddled over and fell asleep.


Chapter 33:

“Careful with her!” Preeti whispered, I opened my eyes and I was in the air.

“Don’t worry I got you.” Ryan said carrying me.

“Why are you carrying me?” I asked getting scared. He sat me down on my bed. “Where’s Cliff and everyone?”

“Alexie and Cliff are asleep, Preeti and Xavier just packed up the kids and left for home.” he sat next to me. “Se told me everything that happened.” I let out a sigh.

“Is there any alcohol in this house?” I asked.

“For you, no.”



“A few shots won’t kill them, they’re dying for a drink, it’s been months!”

“This is an argument you will never win, give up.” I rolled my eyes.

“So where are you gonna live?”

“No idea, but I need to be out tomorrow. Fuck…tomorrow.”

“What’s wrong with tomorrow?”

“I promised Alexie I would take her to Bruno’s concert. Her me and Loba are going.”

“Oh, make sure you look good. Rub it in more how much he’s missing.”

“Yeah.” I smiled. “Ryan what would I do without you?”

“I don’t wanna know.” he wrapped me in his arms. “I miss you though.”

“How could you miss me?”

“I miss being with you.” he said and kissed my neck.

“Ryan.” I tried to protest.

“Just one time, what will it hurt?” he said crashing against my lips. 

“No Ryan. I don’t think we can ever be like that again.”

“Why?” he asked against my neck.

“Your son is my nephew. And to the state I’m married.”

“But in your heart and your life you’re not.” he said and rubbed his hand up my shirt.

“I said no.”

“Are you serious?” I looked at him.

“You can’t just pick and chose when you want me Ryan.”

“I’ve never stopped wanting you Nicholle. You were the one to move away remember?” He knew what I was gonna say next. “And I was drunk and probably some more other things that night. It was a mistake. Yes I love my son, but it wasn’t a choice for me.”

“You can’t take back what you did.”

“I’m not trying to, I just want to move on from it. It was a mistake in my past, Nicholle, past!”

“I’m not sleeping with you tonight Ryan.”

“Okay, I get it. But I need to know that you’re okay with that past.”

“No I’m not okay with it. I don’t think I’ll ever be, but I can accept it, because I’ve done things in my past that you’ve accepted.” I said looking at my arms. The scars are just faintly there. 

“Right in your past.”