She just stared at me. “Tell me please.” I whispered. Why was I begging her? Did I really want to know something as terrible as this? “The last time we we’re at the studio.” I jumped back, “What?” I always had in my mind that the last time was here in our house when I went to work. “Yeah he was drinking and came in the bathroom while I was in there I tried to tell him it wasn’t right but..” “I can’t deal with you..” I said standing up. I stumbled around everyone. Michelle jumped up to help me to my room. I fell into my bed and let out the tears. “I’m tired of crying!” I screamed. What did I not have that Bruno was looking for? I just wanted it all to be right for a change.
“Theres no telling what he’s always doing when he’s not with me.” I cried. Michelle hugged me, “It’s gonna be okay.” “It’s not, it’ll never be right. The problems never stop. He won’t even change, even after what happened he still hasn’t changed.” She unlocked from me, “What do you mean what happened?” My emotions were all over the place, I was just saying everything on my mind. “He tried to kill himself! He was gonna jump off a fucking building!” I cried. She put her hand over her mouth, “When? Why didn’t you tell me?!” I shook my head, “He didn’t want anyone to know.” “Oh my god.” she whispered.
I put my head in my hands, “I know. I saved him. He was actually going to do it.” “Diamond, I’m sorry. I didn’t realize that you guys we’re having problems like these.” she said rubbing my back. I wiped my face, “And I can’t stop them from coming, everyday it’s something new.” “Listen Diamond, you’re going to have to be strong about this. You’ve been threw worst, and you don’t deserve this.” I sniffed, “What do you think I should do?”
She got really close to me and whispered in my ear, “Where you going after this?” I stopped dancing and back up. She frowned, “I’m sorry.” I shook my head, “It’s not you. I got a girlfriend. And I need to make a change.” She smiled, “You’re a good guy for that one.” “If only you knew what I’ve done to her. I’ve gotta make it right.” She put her hand on my shoulder, “She should be lucky to have you.” I nodded, “I’m going to go home to her right now.” “It was nice meeting you Bruno Mars. I wish the best for your career.” “Thank you.” I said walking back downstairs.
“First, I suggest you talk to him, hear his side. Even though he’s done wrong everyone still needs their chances. And you know I’ve been telling you this for years. Bruno’s just honestly a good guy who makes bad choices. If you love him, you’re going to have to help him threw that.” I nodded, her words mean’t everything to me right now. I was tired of giving him chance after chance, but I guess that’s what love is. I knew that no one in the world could love him like I did. I was just waiting for the moment where he would realize that.
“You bout’ ready to go?” I said walking next to Phil. He looked at me surprisingly, “Oh! You not gonna go home with some random girl tonight?” I shook my head, “Na man, I’m done with that life, I told you I need to make a change. I’m gonna get my some self control.” He smirked, “You don’t know how good it feels to hear you say that.” “Let’s get out of here man, my baby is at home waiting for me.”
I took a deep breath. “Where is he at now?” she asked me. “I have no idea, I’m hoping in the studio.” She looked around, “Well it is getting late, and I want you to get your thoughts straight before you just go off on him ya’ know?” I nodded and smiled, “Right.” “Let’s just go back out in the living room and calm down till’ he gets here.” We both stood up and I hugged her again, “I don’t know what I would do without you.” She laughed, “I don’t know probably die!” I laughed at her and walked back into the living room.
I went and sat back down in my same spot. “I’m sorry everyone, I just had a little breakdown.” I looked at Karmen and put my hand on her shoulder, “And for you.” She frowned, “What?” “I want you to be here when Bruno gets here. So we can all work this little problem out.” She shook her head, “I got places to be.” She started to stand up, but I pulled her back down. I talked threw my teeth, “You’re going to stay here and we are all going to talk.” “Who are you to make me stay here?” Why was she going to make this situation harder then it already was?”
I got in my car, but I let Phil drive this time. I was a little too tipsy to drive. I took my hat off and put it on the dashboard. I ran my fingers threw my hair, “Damn.” Phil looked over to me, “What?” I turned to him and smirked, “She almost got me.” He laughed, “I’m glad you found the strength step away from the sex.” I nodded, “All I need is her.”….
I didn’t want things to get physical but, I also didn’t want her to just walk out the door without me knowing everything. “I’m your friend that you lied to and betrayed in the worst way. So, if you want to even continue being in me OR Bruno’s life for the RIGHT reasons, then I suggest you stay. Cause’ I honestly could be going crazy right now, yelling, screaming, fighting. But, I’m better then that and you should try and learn from this situation.” She looked down. I looked over to Michelle who gave me a thumbs up. “So it’s your choice you can leave right now, or you can stay and be an adult about this..” I said looking at her seriously.
“Yeah cause’ you got a good one.” he said stopping at a red light. I looked over to him, “I know, and honestly Phil I wanna marry her.” He smiled, “Your growing up so fast Brunz! I thought I would never see the day where those words came out of your mouth!” I laughed. “You sure that bartender didn’t throw something in your dancing juice?” I shook my head, “Na man, it’s me. The Brunz just wants to finally settle down.” We pulled up to the house and it looked like everyone was here. “Damn we didn’t even have to go out, the party was at my house!” I joked. He slammed the car door, “Damnit, wasting gas.” I laughed as I opened the door.
I heard Bruno’s laughter as the door opened. I looked up to see him and Phil walk in. “What’s up ladies?” he said putting his arms out. Carla held up her drink, “Partying?” He looked around and laughed, “I see.” I smiled at him, “Bruno we need to talk.” He frowned as he came closer to all of us, “What happened?” I put my hand on Karmen’s shoulder, “Well my friend Karmen here has been telling me some things..”
My stomach started to churn and I nervously looked around to everyone. Did they all know? “Yeah.. well can we 3 talk.. some other time?” She smiled and shook her head, “No I think we should all talk now, in front of all of our friends.” I swallowed hard. I really didn’t want all the girls to know everything. I needed to get out of this, quickly. “Bruno?” she said snapping me out of my thoughts. “Yeah yeah, I guess that’s okay.” I looked around at everyone and they we’re still looking at me. This was completely different then being up on a stage.
“So Karmen, how did you and Bruno start messing around again?” She looked down, “Well we we’re in the studio.. in Brooklyn and we we’re flirting of course. And one night we stayed a little later, and everyone else had left and he asked me..” I looked over to Bruno and he shook his head. I know he hated hearing this, but not as much as I did. “So, Bruno. What did you say to her?” He looked at me in disbelief, but I didn’t care. I wanted to make this room as uncomfortable as possible.
I remembered the night like it was yesterday, but I didn’t want to say all of this out loud. “Tell her.. please.” Karmen said. I looked down, “I asked her if she was into me.. like I was into her..” I choked on my words, I couldn’t believe I had just said that, out loud. “Hmm.. and you guys did it there in the studio. Without even thinking about poor old little Diamond?” I shook my head, “Baby I swear it’s not even like that.” She shot me a look, “Bruno don’t.”
I didn’t want to hear him beg or ask for forgiveness, the damage was honestly already done. I just wanted to make them both hurt for what they did. I wanted them to be as embarrassed as I am. “I got something to say.” Karmen said. Everyone looked at her, what important thing could she have to say. “Okay..” I said nodding. “I was set up.” I frowned at her, “What?….”
“I was set up okay. I swear I didn’t want to do it, but she said she would kill me if I didn’t!” I shook my head, “What in the fuck are you talking about!” “It was Amber! It’s always been her!” she screamed. My stomach dropped to the floor, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. “Are you fucking kidding me?” Bruno said walking towards her. She looked at him, tears we’re coming down her face, “No I’m not kidding you, but I was just doing this for her.. and then I fell for you. You we’re more then I expected.” I looked around to everyone’s faces we we’re all in shock.
“I can’t fucking believe you.” I yelled. She stood up, “I can’t believe you! I just wish I wouldn’t have done it.. What was I thinking.” “Why do you want to fuck up my life?” She shook her and head and continued to cry, “I never did, I just loved you..” What the fuck is going on here…
I kept shaking my head and saying no to myself. This was a lot deeper then I thought. I opened my mouth to say something, but no words came out. I didn’t know if I wanted to cry or scream. “Karmen, why? How?” I said scooting away from her. She sat back down and put her head in her knees. “3 years ago.. I ran into her in L.A. We became good friends and I didn’t think much about it.” She paused and sniffed, “We we’re at my house one day.. and she told me about how she hated Bruno, and how much she wanted you dead. The conversation got even worst when she asked me to do a favor…” She cried even harder.
I couldn’t explain the way I felt right now. I hated and felt sorry for her at the same time. She finally lifted her head up and looked out into the distance, “She asked me to go after Bruno, make your life as miserable as possible. I said no, and she threatened to kill me. I asked her why she chose me, and she said I was the only person that could get closest to the both of you without it looking suspicious.” I grabbed my head, “I cant..” “But, the problem is.. I fell in love with Bruno.. and I kept it going even after I could have stopped.” She put her head back down and started to cry even harder. I felt tears coming myself.
I looked at Phil his face was blank. Everyone in the room was lost for words. It was the most awkwardest situation I had ever been in, in my entire life. All along, I had been the one hurting myself. I didn’t think that 7 years ago turning down a date would lead to all of this. I fell for it, and I simply could have avoided it. She never stopped coming after me. I wanted her dead. I looked up to Karmen, “Where is she?” After a couple seconds Karmen finally leaned up, “What?” “Where is Amber?” I said in a strong tone. “I don’t know..” I walked close to her, “Tell me right fucking now.”
I jumped back, there was pure anger in Bruno’s eyes. “I said I don’t know!” she screamed. He got even closer to her, “Tell me right fucking now, or I swear you will pay.” I shook my head, “Bruno, stop..” He leaned out and started pacing. I stood up, “Bruno please calm down.” He walked towards the door and I walked after him, I kept calling his name but, he didn’t respond. He walked out the door, and went towards his car. I ran towards him, “Where are you going?!”…….
He didn’t respond and I grabbed his arm before he could get into the car. He tried to pulled away, but I didn’t let go. “Please let me go Diamond.” “No, I don’t want you to do anything stupid.” I cried. “I’m not..” “How do I know that?” I whispered. He looked at me again, with that same anger in his eyes, “Let me go.” I started to let go but, I didn’t. I shook my head and cried, “Bruno no. Please no. You told me not to let you do it! I’m not going to let you.” He took his other hand and grabbed me by my shirt, “I’m not going to DO IT.” he screamed. He had never yelled at me like that, even in our worst arguments. I was so scared right now, I didn’t know what was going threw his mind..
“Bruno please.. calm down..” I whispered. He shook his head, “I can’t. I can’t let her keep doing this to my life.” “Okay.. and what are you going to do about it?” “I don’t know right now..” he whispered. He slowly let go of my shirt. “Just don’t do anything stupid.” I said looking down. “I can’t promise you that.” I looked back up to him quickly, “What do you mean?!” “I said, I can’t promise you that.” I shook my head in disbelif, you can’t just say something like that. He started walking back towards the front door. What the fuck is he doing..
I stormed in and went towards Karmen, “Give me your phone.” She looked up at me, “No..” “Just give it to me please!” I yelled. She reached into her pocket and handed me her phone. “What are you doing?” I heard Diamond say from behind me. I opened up her contacts and looked for Amber’s name. I found it and dialed.
I stood straight up, listening to it ring. Everyone stared at me. “Helloooo?” “Where are you?” “Oh Bruno! Haven’t talk to you in awhile, how’s your girlfriend? She remember everything okay?” “Where the fuck are you?” “Owhh, someones a little pissed off?” “Amber, I swear if you don’t tell me where you are..” She cut me off, “Whoa there, you don’t have to threaten me.. I can tell you exactly where I am.. I’ve been waiting for you to come and see me.” “Tell me then.” I said strongly. “1527 Caroll Avenue.. I’ll be waiting.” “I’m on my way.” I hung up the phone and tossed it back at Karmen.
I went and stood in front of the door, “Bruno please don’t go over there!” “Diamond, I can’t keep letting this happen. I can’t keep letting her put me and you in danger. She’s tried to kill both of us, and she’s not going to stop until we’re both 6 feet fucking under. Do you want that?!” I shook my head, “No but, what if she tries to kill you now?!” He looked down, “Then baby, I will be dead, at least you will be safe. That’s all I care about.” Is he serious? I loved him, but I would never want him to risk his life for me. I looked down and he grabbed my face and brung it back up. He kissed me and I felt all of his emotions he had built up inside. He leaned his head into mine, “I love you so much.” “I love you too Bruno.” I cried. He walked around me and went out the door. I dropped to my knees.
I got into my car and put my fedora back on. I drove to the address as fast as I could. My emotions we’re everywhere right now, but I needed to get all of this out of the way. I wanted to be with Diamond for the rest of my life, but this was the only thing standing in the way. It was now or never. I was not about to continue to let her control my life. I pulled up to the house and slammed the car door behind me. I was past angry right now, and I knew if she said the wrong thing then it would set me off. I needed to calm down, but I didn’t know how. I banged on the door and waited for her to open it.. I felt myself breathing deeply…