We finally agreed on a dress for everyone, and decided we would go to check out the hall for the reception. We arrived and I really liked the hall, it seemed big enough and the price was reasonable. Carla was so excited for the whole process, you would think she would be overwhelmed. I guess it could be a mixture of both. We left transportation, and food up to Karmeron. He seemed to be okay with that. Tori had a friend of her’s do the cake and I helped with anything I could. With all the talented friends she had, she didn’t have to hire a wedding planner.
She ended up asking Bruno to perform at the wedding and of course I was ecstatic about that. I couldn’t wait to see Bruno in that damn tuxedo, it was killing me. After spending most of the day getting fitted for dresses and looking at the hall we dedicated we would all go to The Palm for dinner. We went and I made sure I got myself a nice steak. I looked at my phone and it was already almost 10 P.M. I decided to head home since I had work early tomorrow.
I walked straight into the house and hung my keys up and fell right into the couch. I had no idea why I was so tired. I looked up to the clock on the wall, it was 10:17 P.M. I wondered what magic Bruno and the guys we’re making in the studio tonight. My phone started ringing startling me. I struggled to get it out of my pocket. It was Deondrea, he never calls me this late. “Hello?” “Diamond.” “Yes..?” “What are you doing?” I sat up a little bit, “Well, I just got in…why what’s up?” The phone got silent, he was scaring me. “Deondrea, what’s going on?”……
“Our company is closing down.” “What?!” I said sitting all the way up on the couch. “I know, I don’t know what I’m going to do.” I shook my head, “It’s going to be okay.” “Not really, it’s going to be hard for me to find a new job.” “Aww, you’re smart and talented I’m sure you can find another job..” He breathed deeply, “I hope so.. We’re supposedly having the meeting about it all tomorrow.” “Damn, well I’m going to help you out as much as possible okay?” “Thanks Diamond, I really appreciate it.” I smiled to myself, “You’re welcome anytime. Now, get some rest okay?” “Alright, goodnight.” I hung up and took a deep breathe, I thought that my company worked everything out. I knew Bruno would act like he was upset, but he had been wanting me to quit for years.
After sitting around talking and getting to know Kenji more, we decided we would all head home. “Wait, what’s tomorrow?” Phil asked turning off the equipment. I looked at him crazy, “Wednesday?” “Don’t give me that look, I don’t make fun of you when you forget your own name.” I just shook my head and laughed. We all walked out and I locked the door behind me. “We all need to be back in here Thursday, we got rehearsals for Carla’s wedding Friday.” Everyone agreed and I jumped in my car and started it up. I finally got home after stopping at every fucking red light.
I went in and hung my keys up. “Diamondddd.” I said, my voice echoed around the house. “I’m in the living room babe.” I went in and she patted the couch next to her, welcoming me to sit next to her. I sat down and put my arm around her and kissed her. “Mmm..” I missed your lips. She smiled and kissed me again. “What ya’ watching?” I said holding her tighter. “Nothing…babe I gotta tell you something.” she said putting her hand on my thigh.
I frowned, “What’s up?” “My company is closing down.” “Huh?” “Yeah, I’m out of a job now.” I didn’t mean to smile but, I did. I had been wanting her to quit FOREVER. I hugged her, “Babe I told you, I can take care of you.” “If you say so Bruno..” she said slowly. I grabbed both of her hands and leaned my head into her’s, “I promise.” She smiled and I kissed her again. I looked down to my watch, “Is that why you we’re up so late?” She nodded. “Well, do you still have to go tomorrow?” She took a deep breath, “Yep, the meeting about it is tomorrow.” I stood up and reached out for her hand, “Well let’s get to bed, I want you to be on time.”
He helped me up and we went into the room. We both stripped down and jumped into the bed. I laid in his arms and of course he fell asleep before me. I had a lot on my mind, so it was really hard for me to sleep. Eventually, I cleared my mind enough to fall into a deep sleep.
I woke up, and looked over to my alarm clock. Great, I woke up 6 minutes before it was set to go off. I slowly crawled out of bed and dragged myself to the bathroom. I showered and felt way better afterwards. This was going to be the last day I would have to drag myself out of Bruno’s arms. It felt good, but at the same time it didn’t. I walked back in the room to see Bruno sitting in the bed still in his boxers, strumming his guitar. “Why are you up so early?” I asked smiling. “Your damn alarm clock.”
I put my hand on my mouth, “I’m sorry.” He smiled, “Nah babe, it’s okay.” I continued getting dressed. “You want breakfast?” he said unexpectedly I looked at him crazy, “Bruno, what are you going to make me?” He hopped up and set his guitar against the wall, “You’ll see!” He ran out the room smiling like a fool. I laughed and continued getting dressed. After about 10 minutes I was done but, I still didn’t smell or hear anything.
I walked out into the kitchen and he had two plates with pop tarts on them and two glasses of milk. He stretched out his arms and smiled like a fool, “Taa daahh!” I laughed and went and hugged him, “You did all of this, for me?” I said sarcastically. He slid the plate close to me, “And I even made your favorite kind.” All I could do was smile at how cute he was, “Thanks babe.” Right before I could bite into my pop tart, Bruno yelled wait. I looked at him crazy, “What?” He came close to me and grabbed my hips, he put his seducing face on. “Since I made you this extravagant breakfast, you gotta give me something in return..”….
I swallowed hard, “Bruno..I gotta go to work..” He started kissing on my neck and whispered in my ear, “I know.” This boy was horny all the damn time. We ended up making out and before it could get any farther I put my hand on his chest to stop him. “Can’t it wait till’ I get home?” I said frowning a bit. He pointed down to himself, “Does it look like it?” I looked down and he was really hard. I quickly looked back up to his face, “Uhh.. it doesn’t.. but I’m sorry!” He put his lip out, “Please really quick.” I always gave in when he used the pouty lip, but this time I didn’t. “Later, I promise.” He took a deep breath, “Okay…” We both continued eating our pop tarts and talking about the wedding next week. Time had been flying lately. When we we’re done he took up our plates and cups and I grabbed my things.
He walked me to the door and kissed me, “Remember what you got coming later.” he said looking me up and down. I smirked, “Okay Bru.” He closed the door behind me and I jumped in my car and fixed my rearview mirror. Off to work for the last time. When I finally got to my office Deondrea was there with my coffee. “Aww, thanks so much.” I said putting my purse down. “Your welcome, I figured since this was the last time I would be doing this, I would make it special.” I smiled and sipped it.
I closed my eyes, it was delicious. “You made it perfectly.” He nodded and smiled, “Alright.” He pulled up his slevee and looked at his watch, “We got that meeting in about 10 minutes.” I sighed, “Damn man, I am going to kind of miss coming to work with you.” I said honestly. Even though I would be able to sleep in, it still wasn’t worth the fun times I had with Deondrea.
I sat on the couch flipping threw channels and channels. I was so damn bored without the studio. I was also still horny from this morning. I shifted positions trying to take my mind off of sex. No matter how many times I moved around and watched TV I couldn’t take my mind off of it. I couldn’t wait till’ Diamond got home. She was still going to be at work for another 5 hours. I looked down to myself, and then back up to the TV. I shook my head, I can’t do that. I mean no one was here, so why not? After fighting with myself for 30 minutes I went in the bathroom and closed the door behind me.
We walked out of the meeting and went back into my office. I closed the door behind me. As soon as it was closed Deondrea grabbed his head and yelled, “Fuck!” I frowned, “Are you okay?” He sat down in my chair and put his head down, “I’m not going to find a job better then this.” I went over and sat on the arm of the chair and rubbed his back. “I promise it’s going to be okay.” I whispered. He looked up at me, “I don’t even know where to start looking for work again.” I shook my head, “I’m going to help you okay, I’ll make sure you find work soon.” I did owe Deondrea honestly. He was the one who in all realitily saved Bruno’s life. He smiled, “Thanks Diamond, you’re always so sweet.” I shook my head, “It’s nothing, you deserve it.” We both stared into each other’s eyes, and I felt myself leaning in towards him.
I came out of the bathroom feeling much better. I hadn’t done that in awhile, but I had to. I went in the bedroom and grabbed my towel and headed for a shower.
For some reason we both never stopped leaning in towards each other, and we kissed. I backed away quickly and looked away. He grabbed my face and turned it towards him and kissed me again. Once again I didn’t reject. Why was I not rejecting?! “Deondrea.” I whispered. “What?” I shook my head, “Bru—” He cut me off, “What he doesn’t know won’t hurt em.” I can’t lie, I had always had a small spot in my heart for Deondrea ever since high school, but I was in love with Bruno. I could never do anything like that to him. “But… I—” He cut me off again but this time with a kiss and this kiss was really passionate. What am I getting myself into?……
He stood me up and we kept kissing. He put his hand under my shirt and rubbed me down. I loved the way he was touching me. It was like I had no control, I didn’t stop him. Before I knew it my pants we’re down. I am really going to do this?
I walked into the bedroom and dried my hair off. I felt a whole lot better after that. I went to my closet and picked up a red and white plaid shirt and some jeans. I left my hair like it was today, I didn’t plan on going anywhere. I went to the back room where we never went and I played random keys on the piano.
I didn’t ever picture myself cheating on Bruno, but I was so caught in the moment that I didn’t bother stopping for nothing. Without thinking twice I was on his lap and he was inside me.
I ended up playing Just The Way You Are a few times familiarizing myself with the keys on the piano as much as possible. I would be playing this live in a couple months, that’s if it was even a successful song. I even found myself a new melody that I planned on using in some song. I took down a metal note of the keys.
I kept going and going, it was like I had always wanted to do these things with him. He was loving it as well, and he wasn’t bad at all either. We both got done at the same time and I laid there on him out of breath. All at once, I regretted what I had just done. I got off of him quickly and got dressed. He pulled his underwear and pants back up, “What’s wrong?” I just shook my head, I had no words. He walked towards me, “I’m sorry…” I looked up at him, “Not as sorry as I’m going to be..” “Look, we’ll keep it a secret okay?” I nodded, “Please.” He leaned in to kiss me but this time I backed away. He shook his head, “Okay, I’m sorry!”
I sat down in my chair behind my desk and put my head down, “I can’t believe I just did that.” I never wanted to get back at Bruno or anything. I was just as bad as him, and I wasn’t even drinking. I looked up at him and his face was blank. I had no idea how we even got into doing that. I hadn’t felt this bad about anything in my entire life.
I sat at the bar eating a sandwich that I just threw together. Diamond was all over my mind. I wished that she was here to cook for me. I was so happy that from now on she wouldn’t ever have to leave me here alone. I ran my fingers threw my hair, and slumped down. It felt good to rest still. I decided to take a nap on the couch to kill the time.
“Are we done for today?” I asked breaking the awkward silence. He looked around and rubbed his hands together, “I mean I guess so..” I stood up and gathered my things together, I was so ready to get out of here. It was weird being in the same room with him after we had just had sex. “Well Deondrea, we’ll keep in touch.” I said walking towards the door. “For the right reasons.” I threw in. “Alright, thanks for everything again.” I turned around to him and looked at him one last time, “You’re welcome.”
I finally got down to the parking lot and got into my car. I put my head on the steering wheel. I could cry right now. My emotions we’re everywhere. How could I keep something like this a secret? I was so mad at myself for letting it happen. What kind of girlfriend am I? And I wanted to get married so bad.. Before I could let myself cry, I started the car and drove myself home.
I pulled up in the driveway and stared at the front door. I had a feeling I would break down as soon as I seen Bruno. I sat there for 10 minutes, trying to make sense of everything in my head. I looked in the rearview mirror and fixed my hair. I got out and closed the door. It felt like everything was in slow motion. I nervously walked to the front door and unlocked it. My hands we’re trembling like crazy.
I slowly walked in and closed the door behind me. I was just waiting for Bruno to jump out at me. I walked into the living room to find him on the couch, I peered over it and he looked sleep. I quietly tip toed past the couch to go towards the bedroom. He started to stir and leaned up and smiled at me, “You’re home.” I stopped in my tracks and awkwardly smiled back, “Yeah..” He sat up on the couch, “How was the last day of work?” Today’s events flashed threw my head and I was lost for words. I know it showed on my face, I was not good at hiding my emotions, at all. He turned all the way around and frowned at me, “What’s wrong…?”…….
I opened my mouth to say something, but instead I burst into tears. I put my face in my hands and before I knew it he was holding me. “Diamond, what is going on?” he said rocking me back and forth. I couldn’t bring myself to say it.
I stroked her hair, and kept whispering to her, “It’s okay babe, whatever it is, it’s okay.” She cried even harder and I held her closer to me. I had no idea what was going on, but she was scaring me. I kept kissing her, “Baby please tell me what happened?” She still didn’t respond. I kept holding her and I was never going to let go. She finally calmed down a bit and we unlocked. I helped her wipe the tears from her face. She shook her head and looked down, “Bruno..” “Yes?” “I’m sorry.” I was starting to get upset, “Sorry for what?” “Everything.” I took her in my arms again, “You don’t need to be sorry, it’s not you’re fault.” I was guessing that everything we had been going threw hit her all at once.
“Come on babe, you need to lay down.” I said picking her up. I carried her into the bedroom and laid her down as soft as I could. I crawled into bed with her and held her close again. She was still crying and I kept wiping her tears. “Babe, what’s on your mind?” I said staring her into her eyes.
I just stared at him, I couldn’t tell him something like this. I couldn’t even form the words into a sentence. “Can I tell you later?” I finally said. He nodded, “Sure I’ll wait till’ you’re ready.” I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. He kissed my forehead and hummed a song to me. Before I knew it, I was sleep.
I watched her as she went into a deep sleep. I never knew that all these situations we’re taking a toll on her like that. I had never seen her cry like this before. I would make it my job to make sure everything was smooth from here on out. She never deserved to cry. I sat and watched her sleep for awhile, I observed every little thing on her face.
I woke up to Bruno’s face right in mine, he was sleeping and he had never let me go. It made me want to cry again. He had no idea what was going on yet, he still was here for me. I peered over to the window and the sun had already went down. I laid there for awhile fighting tears and trying to figure out a way to tell him. Before I could think of something hunger hit me hard. “Bruno.” I whispered. “Hmm..” he responded his eyes still closed. “Are you hungry?” He opened his eyes and smiled, “I don’t know yet, I’m kind of still sleep.” I smiled for the first time in awhile. “Nevermind, I’m hungry now.” I laughed and kissed him.
I let her go and we both crawled out of the bed. I stretched and walked out into the living room. She followed behind me. “What you going to make?” “I don’t know I have to check on what we got.” I went and sat at the bar and watched her go in the fridge. She came out shaking her head. I frowned a bit, “Nothing good?” “Not really.” “I kind of want some chinese.” I said licking my lips. She smirked, “Sounds good.” “I’ll get the menu!” I said running to the bedroom.
I walked over to the bar and put my head down, I really needed to tell him. I hated keeping secrets, but he was just so happy, and I didn’t want to ruin that. I had no idea how he would react. I heard my phone ringing from a distance and I started towards the bedroom. “Helllooo?” I heard Bruno say. “How you been man? Me? Good. Yeah here she is, sorry about that.” He handed me the phone, “It’s Deondrea.” My stomach dropped, “Uhh thanks….”
“Hello?” “Hi, how are you?” He was honestly the last person I wanted to talk to right now. “I’m fine, yourself?” “Im good.” Bruno stood there watching me, why was he just watching me?! “Cool.. so what’s up?” “Well I just got home, and I realized that I’m really lonely.” I frowned, “Huh?” “You should come over for awhile.” I shook my head, was he out of his fucking mind. I just told him what the deal was. Bruno frowned at me and mouthed what’s wrong. “I don’t think that would be…okay.” “Why not? You already did it once, it dosen’t matter anymore. You know we both always wanted to be together.” I couldn’t believe he was saying all of this, and it made it even worst that it all was true. “Deondrea, I can’t.” I said looking down. I could no longer look Bruno in the eyes while I was talking to him. “Come on Dymez, don’t play me now, I need you more then ever.” I froze up.
I had no idea what the fuck was going on, but I didn’t like it. I went close to her, “Diamond, what’s going on?” She didn’t respond and she kept looking down. “Give me the phone.” She instatnly looked up and backed away shaking her head. I frowned and raised my voice, “Just give it to me.” She handed it to me and put her hand over her mouth, what in the hell. “Deondrea, what’s going on man?” “I’ll let her tell you.” and he hung up. I looked at the phone and frowned. “What in the fuck?” I said looking back at Diamond. She kept shaking her head and she looked like she was going to cry again.
I walked up to her slowly and took a deep breath. “Just tell me.” She looked up at me, “Bruno, I swear I… I don’t know why I did it!” she yelled. She was really making me angry now, I went even closer to her, “What did you do?” I said making my words clear.
I couldn’t even look at him, his voice was already scaring me enough. And if I told him, things would get way worst then this. He grabbed my arms, “Damnit Diamond, just fucking tell me!” he yelled. “We had sex, I don’t know why I didn’t stop!” I cried. He shook his head, “What?” “I told you, I’m sorry, I swear I am.” I kept crying. He pulled my face up his, “Why?” His eyes tore me apart on the inside. I shook my head, “I don’t know.” He looked away and shook his head, “You we’re just trying to get back at me weren’t you?” “No, I forgave you, it’s not that!” He looked back at me and nodded his head, “Yeah you we’re..”
I let her go and backed away. I didn’t know what to feel. I couldn’t be mad because of all that I had did to her in the past. But, at the same time I felt completely fucked over. I guess that tables had turned. All at once, I got really angry. “I need to go.” I whispered. “Bruno, please don’t leave.” she cried. I started to walk out the door and she grabbed my arm, I snatched it away, “Don’t touch me.” I said strongly. She let me go quickly. I stormed into the living room and took my keys off of the rack.
She followed behind me begging me not to leave. Before I walked out the door I turned to her, “Diamond, just let me go please before I do something that I will regret, okay?” She nodded, “Okay..” I slammed the door behind me and jumped in my car. I just needed to calm down, I went to the nearest liquor store.
I sat at the bar and put my head down. No matter how much we tried to keep things perfect, it never worked out. I started to think maybe we just shouldn’t be together anymore. Maybe it was god trying to tell us that it will never work. It hurted to think those kinds of things but, the way things kept happening it seemed true. I was doubting if I had ever even loved Bruno in the first place.
I pulled my shades on and went into the store. I bought myself some whiskey and got out of the there as quick as possible. I was hoping no one noticed me because I was bound to tell them the wrong thing. I drove myself to the studio and went in and slumped in the couch. I pulled out the bottle of whiskey and sat it on the table in front of me. I was tired of drinking, but it was the only thing that got me away from the harsh reality that I was living….